Friday, January 23, 2009

sry i haven been blogging lately...i was having projects here and there...luckily i managed to finish it slowly one at a time..phew...hehe xDDDD and i realised i will be leaving ITE dover ina few months sey...i am so gonna rindu the place...X.X

mm okie i am gonna write a poem abt my feelings rite now...

My heart is upside down..
wif my mind in my mouth...
Cant decide if i did right...
I juz hav to let it go..

My heart was once closed..
Nvr wanting to love again..
I closed my eyes to let it go..
but u grabbed on to me even when i say no..

You opened my eyes and made me confused..
Why do u still cling on me?
Its because you love me..
Nvr wanting to let go of me..

Slowly i opened my heart to let u in..
Feelings start to scramble..
Am i lying to myself?
Or to u?

Time will slowly reveal itself..
Will it cut my heart?
Or will it heal my heart?
Juz hav to believe in myself and move on wif life..

You love,like,admire me..
Gonna give myself some time to love u..

mm okie that a poem abt my feelings lately...some people might wad i am talking abt...haiz...thx for reading...-aidil out-

2:05 PM
the out of reach

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Sunday, January 11, 2009

woohoo!! finally my week is coming to an end...wow...quite hectic wk for me...finally i went back to sch..n see my frens...!!

mondae was a slow dae...it was going to be a long dae cause i end at 5pm on that...LOL! went retarded for the whole dae...n i got more merepek than ever...first i had electrical practice class...since it was the first dae of sch...we nvr learn anything but listen to 2 of my classmates who went to germany..WAH!! i wanna go overseas..jealous sey...listening to them makes me wanna migrate to australia...my dream country to live in...xDDD AIDIL WAKE UP!!! go get a gd and stable job...hehe...then second lesson,robotics...wow to me its boring sey...as usual started on a new topic...even though i sit far frm the whiteboard n always chit chat wif my fren..we still manage to absorb smthing into our head..LOL!! then after that went back home to rest up for tmr...

tuesdae was quite ok..i had lifeskills lesson first..boring...juz use the com to do test..hehe then finally some physical education!! woohoo!! time for me to head for the gym...my fav spot..work out for abt 1hr...then went out to play badminton wif my classmates..retarded sey we play...xDDD then one of my fren started to flirt ard wif a girl frm another class...cey cey..xDD then after pe we went to hav our lunch...then ard 1pm,i hav electrical practice class..we started ona new topic...wow...totally blurred out sey...i dun even understand at first...luckily manage to do some when i read it all over again..my memory in my brain spoil already! LOL!! xDD then after class,i went out back home..hehe..

wed is a ok dae for me...had a flexible manufacturing system class...darn boleh tido sey...BORING!! i chatted wif my fren alot...but still we still manage to understand wad teacher was teaching abt...my fren who was sitting at the front did not even understand...LOL!! then after that,we had lunch...YUMS!! then we had another lifeskills class...being retarded in class wif my frens...had a big laugh..XDDD after class,i went out wif my fren to west mall...to ise cream and lepak at tghe interchange...wow...we cuci our mata for awhile..lucky for him arh...got see his type..wth!! my kind so few...sob sob...then we hit back home at ard 7pm..

thurs is quite a hectic dae for me...in the morning i promised my fren go to imm to follow buy headphones...then i also promise to teach my another fren in his robotics...LOL!! we walked ard like so many times ard..xDD finally we found the headphones..but it was the type that he wanted..darn...we walk for so long sey...then we all hit the banquet to fill our tummy...well actually it was mine onli...hehe...then i met up wif my sec sch fren...after that i taught my fren abit of robotics...then we r off to our class at ard 1pm...i had basic x class...i did my work like 1 hardwrking freak sey...seriously i was doing my wrk..o.o after class,i had to go work..sianz....lol...

fridae was ok ok onli dae...i got my project class at 8am...i onli got myself hardwrking up to 10.30am..my stomach was growling...so darn hungry sey..then i got some sort of an agruement wif my fren...LOL!! well it was abt my final year project...thats why..then i hit home after class to rest up before hitting the gym at ard 4pm...wow i stayed ther for like 2 hrs sey...first time i am doing that alone..xDD LOL!! then after that i rest at home for while before going to work for sunrise shift...argh...darn...slow and boring sey...then i meet up a new girl wrking there at my work place..well didn't talk to her that much...

then now i am at home...juz got back home frm work...and met up wif the new girl for work..haha..she was fun to talk to...at least i got smone to teman me to work...or else i will be bored to death sey at wrk...hate wrking alone sey...xDD

eh anyways sun i will be wrking 3pm-11pm...sianz..zzzzz..before that i will be hitting the gym...like i always do...6PACKS PLEASE!! LOL XDD..

ok i am hitting my bed...darn tired sey...my eyes is like closing already..anyways thx for reading my blog...

how abt a random poem for my feelings...

I woke up wif start
Wif the sun shining through the window
Getting up is such a hassle
Without a motive in life

I get lazy and restless
Wif a heavy heart i try to get through this dae
It wasn't easy
But i put on my fake smile

Even though i see nthing in my eyes
I sense smthing in my heart
A knife struck through my heart
Without anyone caring for it

Pushing myself to move on is my objective
Seeing the rest of the year with an open heart and mind
Making my smiles for those ard me
For them who hav helped me alot

thx for reading!!! -aidil out-

Labels: phew gonna be another wk

12:28 AM
the out of reach

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Friday, January 02, 2009

Wow..i didn't noe its already 2009..LOL!! A NEW YEAR...A NEW LIFE FOR ME...but at times i dun wish to move on in my life..but juz go back in time...n change some things that i hav done..i seek forgiveness frm some ppl..wow buat mcm hari raya gitu eh? but still there is still 1 more person that doesn't seem to even take notice of me..haiz...make it even harder to see through 2009...but hey i noe my frens and family will be there by side...so i gonna fake my smile through this yr...oppz!! time to tell wad happen on the nite of new year!!

i woke up frm my deep slumber at ard 12pm...cause i had to work the dae before till 7am..n i hav to meet up wif alif to go do my robotics project..LOL!! we went to west mall library..but i washed my eyes for awhile since he was late!!! MUAHAHAHA!! lol..then he came at 2.30pm..we went off for the library and found a seat in the kids corner...hehe xD well to tell u all the truth...we managed to do 20mins for robotics..while the remaining 40mins,we talked abt stuffs outside studies..hehe..at ard 3.30pm,we decided to go walk ard west mall..mcm biasa lah...go wash eyes!! then we window shop like woman like that...hehe..but tiring arh...we decided to go home at ard 5pm..then i got call frm my fren asking me where i am going for the countdown party..but told him that i already hav plans for myself..

i went back to get myself ready for a countdown party wif my sec frens...woohoo!! i went out at ard 9pm to meet one of my frens to head off for causeway point..quite boring leh...the past 2 yrs i hav been going there for my countdown party!! I DUN CARE NEXT YR I AM GOING TO SENTOSA OR MARINA BAY!! mauahahaha!! then we took the train frm bukit gombak mrt and we hav to wait for another fren there..and darn was he late...me and my fren went walk ard first...wow so many ppl...O.O we waited for him till ard 11pm then he arrived..LOL!! darn u!! then we enjoyed the countdown party...hip hop dance..bands playing...n FINALLY THE COUNTDOWN!! 2009!! wee..after that we went crazy!!! party! well not really...we stayed for awhile there...then we went off to lepak smwhere else..juz 3 of us...we went back to bukit batok and bought food and drinks frm 7-11...danger!! but dun buy too much shark drink...after that we went to "bukit batok PLAZA"...hehe and sat on the stairs...we became high like being on drugs after drinking shark...hehe...here is my retarded pic...

wow plain retarded rite? we made a lot of noise..caught alot of attention...and i did my retarded dance in front of the traffic light...N ITS JUZ 3 OF US!! LOL!! luckily no one called the police...phew...xDD n then we went back to our respective homes at ard 3am...wow...this is my life...this is how i live it...hehe xD

anyways thx for reading my blog...i juz wanna go to rest now...having a throbbing headache now...xDD -aidil out-

12:09 AM
the out of reach

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